Where Have I Been?
WHERE I'VE BEEN. THE ONE YEAR
ANNIVERSARY OF THE DAY THAT CHANGED MY LIFE FOREVER.
My poor blog has been neglected for the
past year, but I'm not beating myself up for it. How can I, when I have
neglected myself. Today marks the one year anniversary of the day that changed
my life forever.
Things were going great. I had worked
hard and persevered to take my business to the next level. I was on top of the
world and was coming off a successful launch of Crystyler by Norma Rapko.
I had worked 5 long years to bring
Crystyler to market. We had just wrapped multiple shows on HSN that had sold
out on my product and had launched a national informercial with one of the most
successful companies in the country. I was also celebrating on a personal
level. My son, Andrew, had been accepted to CalState Northridge. He is the
first in our family to be accepted to a university. I was riding high!
On a cold, cloudy morning all that
changed.
The phone rang and it was my husband’s
doctor. I had my suspicions when we’d gone in for a checkup and this call
proved my suspicions right. A tumor on his left cheek in the parotid gland was
a concern and needed to be removed immediately. The procedure would require
high risk surgery. The news shook me to the core, knocked the wind out of me
and brought me to my knees. My thoughts immediately circled back to his mother
who had passed away of cancer when he was 10 yrs.
The news was devastating, and I
struggled to compose myself. I had an impending meeting scheduled 10 mins after
the doctor’s call. It was a big meeting. The kind that is a game changer
in the business world. It took everything I had to pull myself together for it.
The meeting brought more bad news and
not the outcome I was hoping for. FAILURE! That was
the only thing I could think of. You FAILED! I am a failure.
There were a hundred moving parts to my
husband’s procedure, so I had to keep moving. He needed a team of experts and
extensive care after the surgery. My son also needed support as he transitioned
into college and my daughter was panicked at the thought of her father’s
diagnosis. My family required my full attention. I was so overwhelmed, but I
stepped into this new chapter with my whole heart.
In the following months I made the
decision to pull back on my business. My family has and always will be my #1
priority. I stopped traveling, no longer did appearances and dropped anything
else that would take time away from those I love the most.
During the next four months I helped
nurse my husband back to health. The day he returned to work I could't get
myself out of bed. I sobbed all day. I allowed myself to release the pain,
grief, stress and failure I had bottled up inside of me. I was exhausted and
burnt out. I had completely neglected myself and was feeling the effects of
that. I come from a long line of women who taught me, “Keep going. Be tough.
You'll get through it and it will all be ok.” But it wasn't ok. I had fallen
apart. I was broken, hurting, grieving, and depressed. Ultimately, I had lost
myself.
I knew in that moment I needed a drastic
change. I began to practice self-care through meditation, mindfulness and
prayer. I started writing, reading, painting, and cooking again. I went back to
all the things I loved to do but had been too busy to do. I slowed my world
down completely. Looking back on it now I call it, My Year of Silence.
In this silence I was able to take a
really good look at my life and discovered what is most important to me, who am
I and what my purpose is here on earth.
I had gotten on a roller coaster and
didn't even remember when I bought the ticket. On top of that, I had never
gotten off! I was living my life in the past and in the future while racing
through the present.
On the morning of October 26, 2014 God
made it loud and clear that living in the past is painful and worrying about
the future is too time consuming. What matters is this present moment. The here
and now. The love we experience and the people we share it with. That day I got
off the roller coaster and changed my life forever. I am a different person
now, with a different purpose full of beautiful and rich experiences. God has
given me the power to 'see' and has breathed new life into what he intends for
me.
These days I am excited about exploring
new opportunities and sharing my story.
God answered my prayers and my husband
has made a full recovery. My son is enjoying his days in college and my
daughter is a senior in high school and loving every minute of it.
So, live in the moment. Be present. It's
all we have. As for me, my spirit is not broken and I am moving ONWARD!
Xoxo,
Norma
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You are a beautiful, wise inspiration to those of us who yearn for rest, renewal, and to get off the rollar coaster! Thank you for your amazing words.
ReplyDeleteIncredible journey. So glad to read that your husband is better. Tragedy and suffering brings along with it incredible blessings we could have never known otherwise. Time to enjoy those blessings and take care of Norma.
ReplyDeleteHooray! On all counts, your year speaks of faith, hope, and love, most of all love. There are times in our lives that we look back on as a pivotal moment, and this past year sounds like such a year for you, Norma. Thank you for sharing about your past year, the screeching halt of the roller coaster ride, the stress, the praying, the faith, and the love. I am so thankful your husband is better, and that you had a year to regroup, and take care of YOU. I love you friend. ❤️
ReplyDeleteGod bless you and your family Norma!! Thank you so much for sharing your heart. I am going through a similar situation and you have given me hope and strength. Thank you!!
ReplyDeleteLove's blessings dear heart. Thank you for sharing your journey.
ReplyDeleteEverything happen for a reason!! Thanks for sharing your journey!! Como siempre fuertes como latinas!!
ReplyDeleteAbrazos
Magda Cortez
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